WHO THE FUCK CAME UP WITH THIS THING? WHOS DUMBASS IDEA WAS IT?
My gf has been doing this break shit with me out of nowhere for the past 38 days! it is a total load of bullshit!
me and timi just got back from an amazing holiday in the Maldives..we literally did everything a couple would do on their honeymoon. before we went on the holiday our relationship was really good, the only bad thing was my work load but thats obvious when your trying to get everything done before you go on vacation so you don’t have to think of work. anyway, so we go on this holiday everything is perfect. we come back and right after that i had to travel 3 times for work only coming home for 4 to 5 days in between. somehow my travels managed to make my gf realize she’s not sure if she wants to be with me or not.
while i was away she hardly spoke to me and whenever i came back in between she didn’t want to see me. i left with a clear mind thinking we just had the best holiday i really did not expect this from her.
my question is when everything is going perfectly perfect and you leave for a little bit how does your partner forget all the good times with you and starts remembering our issues from the past? is someone putting shit in her head? did she cheat and she’s guilty? every possible thing has gone through my mind.
I mean if we were going through a bad time in the moment and she did that i would understand but we have been doing more than amazing.
yes we both made many mistakes in the past maybe be more than her but i was under the assumption that it was behind us and that was the purpose of having that amazing holiday.
I think its because i travelled everything when down hill but that doest mean its ok. does it mean every time we r away from each other she is going to question us? how can someone live with that?
now its been over a month this shit has been going on and no breaks do not bring people closer. it just doesn’t!
If you are willing to make it work it might work but both people have to try hard enough. i have been working my ass off because i know the issues she has with me and I’m changing myself for her. but i don’t see the same effort from her side. its really making me question everything. why would someone say they want to spend forever with you but not even try hard enough to forget whatever they want to forget.
as far as i see it we all have the power to take control of our own thoughts. we have the power to let the positive over power the negative and vise versa. it all depends on how bad you want it.
she has made many mistakes and i used to always bring it up and she told me let it go. and I’ve learnt how to so why can’t she tame her mind to do the same?
honestly the way i see it this break isn’t about us because if it was n she truly wanted us to work she would be trying it wouldn’t tae 38 days! i see it as this being way for her to get freedom because instead of exercising her mind she has made a group of new friends that i don’t even know. she spends all day with them she doesn’t see me she hardly talks to me and when she does its usually full of insults and bringing up the past that i thought was already well behind us. she isn’t trying at all. and to top it all off i hear she’s dating a guy she’s hanging out with but she denies it. how am i supposed to believe her when she’s been sneaking around and lying to me? whens he’s not even asking the guy to apologize to me or her for making her look trashy? she’s not even bothered to speak to him and tell him anything about what he claims. seems like its true doesn’t it? seems like she’s really with someone else doesn’t it? and this isn’t the first time she’s lied and pushed me away like this and the last time it was about her freedom.
if someone doesn’t want to commit to a relationship why do you keep your partner waiting in hope while your out doing whatever you want? its not fair. you want to go go! you are dating someone else leave me and enjoy with him. you want your freedom take it and have your life without me. don’t keep me on the side lines lying about everything and making false promises. don’t tell me your trying when theres no proof of it.
a break doesn’t go on for this long. I’ve managed to already make plenty of changes to my life for her in a weeks time. it doesn’t take 38 days to clear your head especially when things have been going more than perfect.
i will never understand what she’s doing and why she’s doing it. i would love to make some sense of it. but for now I’m just waiting, hoping not even knowing if she’s actually really going to be with me or not.
Breaks are stupid you either choose to stay and make it work or you leave for good! its simple!